Movie Review | A Stray Goat/Nunbal
7 Cutiepie(s) | Oct 16, 2017 11:48 AM

So, as the title, in this post I'm going to review a Korean movie entitled A Stray Goat. This movie came out April last year kalau tak silap. The main reason why I am watching is because the main actor is Park Jinyoung from GOT7 hehe. Walaupun dah lebih setahun released, aku baru macam tergerak hati and terasa ada mood nak tengok harini, so here I am. Actually, tak berniat pun nak tulis review, but ada a few messages in this movie yang aku rasa berbaloi kalau share. Before we start, this post contains SPOILER yang kaw piaw punya spoiler. I'll start off with the synopsis first, nanti bila dah masuk tang spoiler, aku letak spoiler alert, okay? This is my first time writing a review for a movie so please bear with my amateur review hahaha. So let's start with the movie poster first:

This is the link to the movie: Nunbal | Movie trigger warning: Bullies, lots of cursing, sexual assault

      The movie starts off with the main character, Cho Minsik, a priest's son, moving from Seoul to a rural village because his father is re-opening an abandoned church. There, he started to be friends with a few bad kids, who like to bully a girl named Yang Yejoo, because of her father was accused to kill one of the classmate's sister. Long story short, along the way, Minsik and Yejoo became friends, and even closer when Minsik showed her a stray goat that he found in the mountain.

I don't want to go in detail about what happens in  the movie, but what I'm gonna say first is, after watching this movie, the first thing that came in mind is literally "???????????????". Or at least that was how it was for me. Aku tenung skrin lama sikit, fikir-fikir kejap, barulah, "Oh..........." and it left me speechless, honestly. 

What I'm about to say after this contains light spoiler, but the message behind the scene was something worth the spoil. Ni, memang pada aku pengajaran paling besar dalam cerita ni.

      There's this one scene when Yejoo goes to the church to find Minsik after he was absent at school. Dia datang bawak kambing dia, naik bas, and even though pakcik bas tu marah sebab mana boleh bawak kambenk kan naik bas. Then sampai church tu, dia berhenti dekat satu lopak air ni. Aku legit ingat dia nak tengok reflection dia je, sekali, dia pijak lopak air tu, kaw kaw kotorkan kasut dia, then, she walked in the church. Masa tu orang dalam church tu tengah baca doa lah kan, dia jalan selamba je dengan kambing tu, bawak lumpur masuk church. Sampailah this one pakcik halau dia sebab ye lah, dahlah bawak masuk kambing, kotorkan pulak tu. Then she saw Minsik, hoping that he would say something, but Minsik buat-buat tak kenal je. (fuck u minsik)  Dah kena halau, Yejoo pun keluar lah. But then, she saw the same asshole pakcik dalam church, and instead of being embarassed of himself, he looked at Yejoo with the dirtiest look possible. (fuck u also pakcik)

This scene, is actually, very deep. The metaphor is just... mindblowing.

The goat represents as history of what had happened to Yejoo. She lost a very precious thing, but the bad history and memory remains with her everywhere she goes. What's done remained done. Remember the pakcik bas? Pakcik bas represents the public. Public will hate you because of your history, but what can you do? It's stuck with you forever. It's not like you can just leave it anywhere. 

The lopak air, represents as human's sins. Before Yejoo pijak lopak air tu, kasut dia bersih. Bila dia dah pijak, kasut dia kotor. Dia bawak dosa-dosa dia ke mana pun dia pergi.

Then she walked in the church, along with her bad history, bad memory, trauma, etc, along with the sins, but what did the people at church, who was supposed to be the "kind one" did? They looked at her with such judging looks, and chase her away from the church.

Is the church, or in our Malay culture lah, the mosque, or any religion place(?), religion house(?), is supposed to be for people who are religious only? Or, religious people kena kawan dengan religious people only? Yang ada dosa? Yang ada mistakes????

Disclaimer: aku tak kata semua orang alim berperangai begitu, tapi, walaupun sikit, ada tau golongan macam ni. Mana tahu terkena pulak dia baca post aku ni hehe. This is a note to myself too.

Ok tu je yang deepnya hehe.


Movie ni, sebenarnya, tergantung.  It has no definite ending. Ada ending, nanti aku cerita pasal ending dia, tapi ending tu tak semestinya ending. Faham kan? Ke tak? Seriously kalau korang tengok movie ni korang fahamlah maksud aku tu. After I finished watching the movie, I looked at what Jinyoung(who plays as Minsik) got to say about the movie and his character, and then I understand. I understand what the movie was about. 

       There's a lot of questions with no answer, honestly. In the earlier part of the movie, it was said that Minsik had to move to Goseong because he caused some trouble back then in Seoul. What he did, remains unknown until the end of the movie. Which I think means that we don't always know what happens in other people's live, what they've been through etc. Yejoo's father was accused as a killer, and there was this one part where he denied it when he was asked, but there was no final result, whether he really killed the victim or not. And also, the ending, which I said isn't definite. Yejoo was absent at school so Minsik was kind-of looking for her, but she was nowhere to be found. While walking, Minsik came across the stray goat that both he and Yejoo cherish a lot, but the goat was alone. Minsik chased for it, but he stumbled and fell down a few times, until the last time he fell, he just gave up and lay down, staring at the cloud, crying, until the snow came down. And that's it. The indefinite ending. We won't know if Minsik ever got up and chase again, if he found Yejoo, if he ever apologize to her, if he ever ended up with any relationship with her, no. We don't know what happens to Yejoo either. The ending is Minsik laying down, crying, what I see as regretting, and that's it.

Now, I'm about to elaborate on the climax of the story. Korang mesti curious kan kenapa Minsik ada rasa menyesal? Why did I mentioned if Minsik ever apologize to Yejoo? 

       Long story short, adalah sorang pakcik ni dia claim anak kambing yang Minsik dengan Yejoo jumpa tu dia punya kambing. Yejoo didn't want to let the goat go, so Minsik made a promise to the pakcik that he will buy the goat instead. But he got no money lorh this stupid boy 😑 Janji nak bagi duit the next day pulak tu eyyy bodoh ke? Haa marah ni marah. But he got the money. How? You watch sendiri la hahaha. He got the money, then the money got stolen pulak dah satu hal, and while dia pergi lawan-lawan nak ambik duit tu semula, Yejoo go to meet this pakcik alone. Yejoo still refuse to give the goat, so that pakcik mengamuk lah sebab dah lah duit takde, kambing kau nak. Banyak cantik muka kau? So pakcik tu pukul-pukul Yejoo, and then the pakcik being his asshole self, he raped Yejoo. THIS IS WHERE I GOT SO EMO LAH SEBAB MINSIK THEN DATANG LARI-LARI AND MASA TU PAKCIK TU DAH SIAP HIS DIRTY BUSINESS WITH YEJOO(it wasn't showed in detail don't worry) TAPI KIRANYA MINSIK TU TAHULAH KAN YEJOO TU KENA RAPE, PASTU, PASTU, PASTU, DIA BOLEH BLAH??????? WTF???? BRUH?????

This is why I have trust issue with good looking guys. Mesti, adaaaaa je yang tak kena. Aku cuba lah husnudzon ok mungkin dia gi panggil polis ke, orang lain ke nak mintak tolong kan? But no. He didn't come back...

The saddest thing is, Yejoo saw him running away 😭

Yejoo get the goat, but she lost her dignity. She went to school the next day, bringing the goat along. Of course lah she gets bullied and called names for it, but she didn't care enough. Lagi sedih, Minsik was absent that day.

After that, the scene yang Yejoo pergi church tu happened. 
Remember how Minsik only saw the goat alone, but without Yejoo? Like I said earlier, the goat symbolizes what happened to Yejoo. Minsik saw the goat because he actually knows. He'll be haunted with the regret, probably forever. Even when Yejoo is not there anymore. Anything could've happened to Yejoo, either she ran away, or no longer alive, but the history, what happened, what Minsik witnessed, happened, and nothing could change that fact.

After I finished watching, of course lah I couldn't help but to wonder why didn't Minsik say anything, do anything when he saw what happened to Yejoo and afterwards. The actor, Jinyoung himself pun kata dia tak puas hati kenapa character dia tak macam hero-hero filem yang lain. The answer, kinda blows my mind. Below is an interview with Jinyoung:


There's also other messages in the story, that I'd like you to experience watching it by yourself, experience that "Oh........." moment when you finally understand. 

My comment about this movie is, this is a movie with an ordinary story, with ordinary characters, and ordinary ending, but still an amazing movie, nevertheless. 

It's realistic. No fairy tale kind of stuffs. Hero or not, in the end of the day, an ordinary human being has both strength and weaknesses. 

If you ask me to rate, 7.5/10 for storyline, 100/10 for the messages and uniqueness. Tapi perlu sel-sel otak berhubung lebih sikit lah sebab deep 😂

Okay, that's all kot yang I have to say about this movie. Sorry if my review is bad, berterabur ke apa ke. Sorry for the extreme rojak-ness ahahahaha that's just how I write. Some things are more comfortable written in english, while some in malay. Another review that I suggest you to read is here (but this one really contains lots of spoiler as it elaborate most scene in detail, so don't read if you're planning to watch the movie first!) 

Bye, Assalamualaikum 😊

17/10/17 😳💓
Personal | The Tangan Kayu Girl Tried Handlettering
16 Cutiepie(s) | Sep 3, 2017 10:23 AM

Sebelum aku mulakan entry ni, nak cakap, awkward pulak nak menaip sebab dah lama tinggal blog ahahaha. Ampun maaf pada yang melawat blog ni tapi terpaksa menghadap post yang dah berkarat. Sebenarnya dah lama dah nak post entry ni tapi tahap kemalasan nak ambik gambar, edit, dan upload tu sangaaaaatlah tinggi.

     Sepanjang cuti sem 3 bulan ni, dengan bangganya aku nak bagitahu bahawa aku basically tak buat apape yang berfaedah pun. Rutin yang sama je tiap-tiap hari. Cuma, sejak-sejak cuti ni, aku try buat handlettering!! Dah lama dah nak cuba, I've tried it before tapi buruk nokharom pastu give up. Ni lepas tengok one of my coursemate, Amelynn post story dekat Instagram, aku pun tetiberrrr semangat nak buat jugak. Excited gila beli brush- Pentel Aquash Water Brush, harga RM 10.40 boleh jumpa kat Popular. Siap beli sketchbook, watercolour guna adik punya je jenama Buncho sebab nak beli cam membazir entah jadi entah tak kan. Tapi best la masa usha-usha barang tu dengan adik, dia memang minat benda-benda berkaitan art ni, so dia pun excited sekali masa nak membeli. So balik terus try guna brush, ni, masa memula aku try guna, tak tengok video ke apa ke:

*istighfar banyak-banyak sebab buruk sangat*

Yang bebanyak Aina tu adik aku yang tulis sebab dia obses dengan diri dia sendiri.
Ni pulak lepas try tiru-tiru contoh kat gugel:

Konon masa ni dah lawa sangat dah ni hahaha dah terbayang boleh buat duit. Istighfar lagi sekali.

But seriously, handlettering is a lot more fun than I expected. Walaupun stress sebab tak reti sangat nak guna berus, and like I said dekat title tu, aku ni tangan kayu orangnya. Tapi aku minat art, cuma cam emmmm takde bakat hahaha. Lepastu adalah tiru-tiru quotes dekat google, weheartit, and these are the progress:

 Quote tiru. Ni buat masa first day belajar handlettering lol

Quote tiru 2.0

This one sesaje ceconteng, tapi lowkey nak jugak buat nampak cantik hahaha. 

Ugh sorry this one is so low quality. Youngjae's favourite quote and his nickname 💖

 Song lyrics 💖 Nervous gila buat ni sebab takut spoil background dah lawa (lah jugak). Lama kot nak tunggu kering tu hahaha.

this one in goes in my bullet journal 💖

 Song lyrics again. I just love this lyric so why not hahaha. Getting Wet by Beenzino.

 Ni antara yang latest tapiiii buruk af sebab tangan gigil. Bila nak buat yang serious, yang bajet-bajet macam kalau jadi nak post kat instagram, mestiiiiiii tangan gigil gila. And mulalah semua huruf tak jadi. 

Ni yang paling latest, untuk birthday Nazeera, 3/9/2017. Honestly hmmm bangga lah jugak dengan yang ni hahaha. Glitter-glitter tu guna Art Rangers Glitter Tempera Paint, beli kat Mr. DIY harga RM 2.90 ke 3.90, tak ingat hehe. 

Tu a few yang sedap mata memandang, yang selebihnya.... Istighfar banyak-banyak lagi. Hahaha. The point of this post is bukan nak kata aku buat handlettering ni lawa, just nak share the progress from buruk nak mampus, and sekarang boleh la kan, ada la jugak rupa walaupun still tangan gigil hahaha. And ni jugak untuk rujukan akan datang, mana tahu nanti gambar hilang ke, nak kena delete ke, at least dalam blog dah ada.

       Now, kumpul duit, berjimat cermat nak beli better brush, watercolours. Benda-benda ni semua nak kata murah, tak jugak. Nak jadi cantik mahal, nak jadi berseni pun mahal, and lagi parah bila nak jadi dua-dua pada masa yang sama 😂 

       Lastly, nak kata, kalau korang ada teringin nak belajar or buat something, go for it! Start now! Cantik ke, jadi ke, tak penting, yang penting bila dah cuba tu puas hati. Jangan expect terus perfect, and jangan cepat sangat give up tau! Mula slow-slow, at that one point walaupun belum sampai level perfect, bila you tengok balik your progress and improvement, rasa puas hati sangat. Rasa macam wow bangga and sayangnya diri sendiri 💞 

Ok tu je. Bye.
Assalamualaikum 😊

Cuti dah nak habis *nangis dekat bucu bilik*

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Personal | Lessons learnt through halfway of 2017
15 Cutiepie(s) | Jul 5, 2017 1:47 AM

Original photo by: gokseninyuzun

A super quick update, I typed this entry in my phone's memo, masa tu kat kampung, tak boleh tidur so tengah fikir-fikir, tetiba dapat idea nak buat entry ni. And taip je ikut suka hati, and ni lah hasilnya. This is a reminder for us, including myself too.

1. Know your self value
If someone isn't treating you the way you deserve, leave. Never, ever beg for attention, for love, for anything. You worth more than that. Don't be upset if someone doesn't treat you right, when in fact, you're the one who doesn't treat yourself right. You need to get what you deserve, but never beg. you want love? You want attention? you want happiness? Stop depending on others and start working on them on your own, because you're stronger and definitely capable of achieving those things by yourself.

2. Moving on is hard, but keep going.
It's not gonna be easy. You'll be reminded of the same person everywhere you set your eyes on. It's not gonna take 2 seconds. Just when you think you've forget him(also apply for her), he comes rolling back in your mind. But if you stop trying, you'll never succeed. Instead of forcing yourself to not be reminded of him, just let yourself naturally enjoy what you do daily. Enjoy your time with your friends, enjoy what you eat during lunch, enjoy looking at the cloud during day, enjoy looking at the stars during night. What he did to you doesn't deserve the time you spent mourning. You can't lose to him, and you can't let him win. Not after he hurt you. Remember #1, self worth.

3. Never underestimate the power of du'a.
There's this time when my laptop broke down, it just literally "hang" forever, and I just had to forcefully shut down the laptop by pressing the power button- which is not good for the device. I did try uninstalling unnecessary software and it did work, my laptop works normally after that. For about... two weeks or so. I couldn't uninstall any other software because being an ICT student, I do need to have those softwares installed. I came to a dead end. Until, I decided to try to make du'a after prayer even though it kinda sounds silly. My prayer sounds like... "Ya Allah kau bantulah baiki laptop aku. Kau bantulah hambaMu yang buntu ini" it was short, because I thought it was silly. I didn't use my laptop for a few days. And after that, when I turned it on for the first time after I made that 'silly' du'a and use it, surprisingly, magically, my laptop works just fine! I'm seriously speechless, and words couldn't describe just how thankful I was. Alhamdulillah, no problem on my laptop till today. Now that I've experienced myself, over something that I thought so silly, but decided to still give a try, I learnt that we should never, ever, underestimate the power of du'a, and Allah's bless. He granted whatever He wants to grant. Put your trust on Him. Sometimes, He just want your effort :-)

4. Sadly, love isn't based on effort.
This is suuuuuper personal, but I'm gonna spill it anyway. There was this one boy who had crush on me,  I knew it from his friend, who's also my friend. And this boy wants to y'know, get to know me more blabla and I said to his friend that I'm still too lazy for relationshit thingy but I'm okay if he wants to tegur2 me like reply story or what. Because the boy is super shy and  I lowkey don't even notice his existence until my friend brought him up lol. Then the boy talked to me thru insta, then whatsapp blabla. He was nice, I admit it. He adores me like I'm the most perfect person in this world, but his sweet talking is too much and too cringy tbh. I know he was trying to win me or whatever, but like... 3 days after we started talking(on social media only) he started to treat me like I'm his girlfriend. Like... bruh... chill. I can see his effort, morning text, his caringness(is that a word?), long ass goodnight text, but I feel... uhmm...

At a point I do think I could try to like this boy but since he rushed things so it kinda ruined my mood, and I kept trying to remember all his efforts in hope it will overpower other annoying things he did, but nope. I just couldn't find myself feeling the same.
Ironically, before him, I tried to win this one boy's heart by effort too. I mean I like him first, so I did try to be friend and we kind of did, but that's all. Because he still wasn't over his ex. Then I realized, when your heart is just simply not there, no effort can beat it.

5. Buat nota study awal-awal.
Please la Zahidah. Please.

6. Share the burden with others.
This happened the most recent, when me and my partner, Syaurah had to do our Web Programming project which is a website. I keep on stressing myself to do it alone since I'm afraid Syaurah wouldn't be able to do it, or I might be unsatisfied, or it would take too much time to work on together, so I decided to do most of the work by myself. Well, basically, I did the project by myself. The interface design, the database, the functions-login, register, blabla. I faced with failures and mistakes alone. I watched numerous tutorial videos on youtube. Googled every time I get any error. Had to push the thought to just give up the marks for the projects for so many times already, at one point, I even cried because of the pressure and the frustating errors that I found no working solution!!! Not to mention I worked on the project during my finals exams. It was honestly so hard, I don't want to remember. Syaurah does offers help, she's not a bad friend, but it's just me and my ego, I want to satisfy myself by doing the exact thing in my mind.

On the project presentation day, there's still a lot of things were undone. after taking my last paper, I came back straight to hostel and started doing the project. My eyes hurt so much due to having no sleep, but I still won't give up. Thankfully, I found solution to the problems blabla, and then I gave the easiest task to Syaurah. I ask her to insert pictures to our website. And she gladly helped. She was really excited, I would say, to contribute in the project. I feel so relaxed and even kinda wants to add more to her task, and guess what, right after she was done inserting images for the site, she asked what can she do next, which is the exact thing I want to ask her to do.

We are no superhumans. Share the burden with someone, do not worn your body out just to feed your ego. If your friend didn't know how, help to teach them. Doing things for them will not be any better of a help. Do not push yourself too hard, lean on others too.

That's all I guess. And... Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to my readers!
Assalamualaikum 😊

Also, Al-fatihah kepada phone aku yang dah selamat dikebumikan semalam.
Zahi, 19 already?

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