Personal | The Tangan Kayu Girl Tried Handlettering
14 Cutiepie(s) | Sep 3, 2017 10:23 AM

Sebelum aku mulakan entry ni, nak cakap, awkward pulak nak menaip sebab dah lama tinggal blog ahahaha. Ampun maaf pada yang melawat blog ni tapi terpaksa menghadap post yang dah berkarat. Sebenarnya dah lama dah nak post entry ni tapi tahap kemalasan nak ambik gambar, edit, dan upload tu sangaaaaatlah tinggi.

     Sepanjang cuti sem 3 bulan ni, dengan bangganya aku nak bagitahu bahawa aku basically tak buat apape yang berfaedah pun. Rutin yang sama je tiap-tiap hari. Cuma, sejak-sejak cuti ni, aku try buat handlettering!! Dah lama dah nak cuba, I've tried it before tapi buruk nokharom pastu give up. Ni lepas tengok one of my coursemate, Amelynn post story dekat Instagram, aku pun tetiberrrr semangat nak buat jugak. Excited gila beli brush- Pentel Aquash Water Brush, harga RM 10.40 boleh jumpa kat Popular. Siap beli sketchbook, watercolour guna adik punya je jenama Buncho sebab nak beli cam membazir entah jadi entah tak kan. Tapi best la masa usha-usha barang tu dengan adik, dia memang minat benda-benda berkaitan art ni, so dia pun excited sekali masa nak membeli. So balik terus try guna brush, ni, masa memula aku try guna, tak tengok video ke apa ke:

*istighfar banyak-banyak sebab buruk sangat*

Yang bebanyak Aina tu adik aku yang tulis sebab dia obses dengan diri dia sendiri.
Ni pulak lepas try tiru-tiru contoh kat gugel:

Konon masa ni dah lawa sangat dah ni hahaha dah terbayang boleh buat duit. Istighfar lagi sekali.

But seriously, handlettering is a lot more fun than I expected. Walaupun stress sebab tak reti sangat nak guna berus, and like I said dekat title tu, aku ni tangan kayu orangnya. Tapi aku minat art, cuma cam emmmm takde bakat hahaha. Lepastu adalah tiru-tiru quotes dekat google, weheartit, and these are the progress:

 Quote tiru. Ni buat masa first day belajar handlettering lol

Quote tiru 2.0

This one sesaje ceconteng, tapi lowkey nak jugak buat nampak cantik hahaha. 

Ugh sorry this one is so low quality. Youngjae's favourite quote and his nickname πŸ’–

 Song lyrics πŸ’– Nervous gila buat ni sebab takut spoil background dah lawa (lah jugak). Lama kot nak tunggu kering tu hahaha.

this one in goes in my bullet journal πŸ’–

 Song lyrics again. I just love this lyric so why not hahaha. Getting Wet by Beenzino.

 Ni antara yang latest tapiiii buruk af sebab tangan gigil. Bila nak buat yang serious, yang bajet-bajet macam kalau jadi nak post kat instagram, mestiiiiiii tangan gigil gila. And mulalah semua huruf tak jadi. 

Ni yang paling latest, untuk birthday Nazeera, 3/9/2017. Honestly hmmm bangga lah jugak dengan yang ni hahaha. Glitter-glitter tu guna Art Rangers Glitter Tempera Paint, beli kat Mr. DIY harga RM 2.90 ke 3.90, tak ingat hehe. 

Tu a few yang sedap mata memandang, yang selebihnya.... Istighfar banyak-banyak lagi. Hahaha. The point of this post is bukan nak kata aku buat handlettering ni lawa, just nak share the progress from buruk nak mampus, and sekarang boleh la kan, ada la jugak rupa walaupun still tangan gigil hahaha. And ni jugak untuk rujukan akan datang, mana tahu nanti gambar hilang ke, nak kena delete ke, at least dalam blog dah ada.

       Now, kumpul duit, berjimat cermat nak beli better brush, watercolours. Benda-benda ni semua nak kata murah, tak jugak. Nak jadi cantik mahal, nak jadi berseni pun mahal, and lagi parah bila nak jadi dua-dua pada masa yang sama πŸ˜‚ 

       Lastly, nak kata, kalau korang ada teringin nak belajar or buat something, go for it! Start now! Cantik ke, jadi ke, tak penting, yang penting bila dah cuba tu puas hati. Jangan expect terus perfect, and jangan cepat sangat give up tau! Mula slow-slow, at that one point walaupun belum sampai level perfect, bila you tengok balik your progress and improvement, rasa puas hati sangat. Rasa macam wow bangga and sayangnya diri sendiri πŸ’ž 

Ok tu je. Bye.
Assalamualaikum 😊

Cuti dah nak habis *nangis dekat bucu bilik*

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Personal | Lessons learnt through halfway of 2017
15 Cutiepie(s) | Jul 5, 2017 1:47 AM

Original photo by: gokseninyuzun

A super quick update, I typed this entry in my phone's memo, masa tu kat kampung, tak boleh tidur so tengah fikir-fikir, tetiba dapat idea nak buat entry ni. And taip je ikut suka hati, and ni lah hasilnya. This is a reminder for us, including myself too.

1. Know your self value
If someone isn't treating you the way you deserve, leave. Never, ever beg for attention, for love, for anything. You worth more than that. Don't be upset if someone doesn't treat you right, when in fact, you're the one who doesn't treat yourself right. You need to get what you deserve, but never beg. you want love? You want attention? you want happiness? Stop depending on others and start working on them on your own, because you're stronger and definitely capable of achieving those things by yourself.

2. Moving on is hard, but keep going.
It's not gonna be easy. You'll be reminded of the same person everywhere you set your eyes on. It's not gonna take 2 seconds. Just when you think you've forget him(also apply for her), he comes rolling back in your mind. But if you stop trying, you'll never succeed. Instead of forcing yourself to not be reminded of him, just let yourself naturally enjoy what you do daily. Enjoy your time with your friends, enjoy what you eat during lunch, enjoy looking at the cloud during day, enjoy looking at the stars during night. What he did to you doesn't deserve the time you spent mourning. You can't lose to him, and you can't let him win. Not after he hurt you. Remember #1, self worth.

3. Never underestimate the power of du'a.
There's this time when my laptop broke down, it just literally "hang" forever, and I just had to forcefully shut down the laptop by pressing the power button- which is not good for the device. I did try uninstalling unnecessary software and it did work, my laptop works normally after that. For about... two weeks or so. I couldn't uninstall any other software because being an ICT student, I do need to have those softwares installed. I came to a dead end. Until, I decided to try to make du'a after prayer even though it kinda sounds silly. My prayer sounds like... "Ya Allah kau bantulah baiki laptop aku. Kau bantulah hambaMu yang buntu ini" it was short, because I thought it was silly. I didn't use my laptop for a few days. And after that, when I turned it on for the first time after I made that 'silly' du'a and use it, surprisingly, magically, my laptop works just fine! I'm seriously speechless, and words couldn't describe just how thankful I was. Alhamdulillah, no problem on my laptop till today. Now that I've experienced myself, over something that I thought so silly, but decided to still give a try, I learnt that we should never, ever, underestimate the power of du'a, and Allah's bless. He granted whatever He wants to grant. Put your trust on Him. Sometimes, He just want your effort :-)

4. Sadly, love isn't based on effort.
This is suuuuuper personal, but I'm gonna spill it anyway. There was this one boy who had crush on me,  I knew it from his friend, who's also my friend. And this boy wants to y'know, get to know me more blabla and I said to his friend that I'm still too lazy for relationshit thingy but I'm okay if he wants to tegur2 me like reply story or what. Because the boy is super shy and  I lowkey don't even notice his existence until my friend brought him up lol. Then the boy talked to me thru insta, then whatsapp blabla. He was nice, I admit it. He adores me like I'm the most perfect person in this world, but his sweet talking is too much and too cringy tbh. I know he was trying to win me or whatever, but like... 3 days after we started talking(on social media only) he started to treat me like I'm his girlfriend. Like... bruh... chill. I can see his effort, morning text, his caringness(is that a word?), long ass goodnight text, but I feel... uhmm...

At a point I do think I could try to like this boy but since he rushed things so it kinda ruined my mood, and I kept trying to remember all his efforts in hope it will overpower other annoying things he did, but nope. I just couldn't find myself feeling the same.
Ironically, before him, I tried to win this one boy's heart by effort too. I mean I like him first, so I did try to be friend and we kind of did, but that's all. Because he still wasn't over his ex. Then I realized, when your heart is just simply not there, no effort can beat it.

5. Buat nota study awal-awal.
Please la Zahidah. Please.

6. Share the burden with others.
This happened the most recent, when me and my partner, Syaurah had to do our Web Programming project which is a website. I keep on stressing myself to do it alone since I'm afraid Syaurah wouldn't be able to do it, or I might be unsatisfied, or it would take too much time to work on together, so I decided to do most of the work by myself. Well, basically, I did the project by myself. The interface design, the database, the functions-login, register, blabla. I faced with failures and mistakes alone. I watched numerous tutorial videos on youtube. Googled every time I get any error. Had to push the thought to just give up the marks for the projects for so many times already, at one point, I even cried because of the pressure and the frustating errors that I found no working solution!!! Not to mention I worked on the project during my finals exams. It was honestly so hard, I don't want to remember. Syaurah does offers help, she's not a bad friend, but it's just me and my ego, I want to satisfy myself by doing the exact thing in my mind.

On the project presentation day, there's still a lot of things were undone. after taking my last paper, I came back straight to hostel and started doing the project. My eyes hurt so much due to having no sleep, but I still won't give up. Thankfully, I found solution to the problems blabla, and then I gave the easiest task to Syaurah. I ask her to insert pictures to our website. And she gladly helped. She was really excited, I would say, to contribute in the project. I feel so relaxed and even kinda wants to add more to her task, and guess what, right after she was done inserting images for the site, she asked what can she do next, which is the exact thing I want to ask her to do.

We are no superhumans. Share the burden with someone, do not worn your body out just to feed your ego. If your friend didn't know how, help to teach them. Doing things for them will not be any better of a help. Do not push yourself too hard, lean on others too.

That's all I guess. And... Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to my readers!
Assalamualaikum 😊

Also, Al-fatihah kepada phone aku yang dah selamat dikebumikan semalam.
Personal | Salam Ramadhan and New Look!!
9 Cutiepie(s) | Jun 1, 2017 12:38 PM

Kampus Induk UTeM | 20 Feb 2017

Ahlan wasahlan ya Ramadhan! Alhamdulillah, sempat kita semua yang masih bernafas harini bertemu Ramadhan 2017. Macam mana so far Ramadhan korang? Alhamdulillah tahun ni first week Ramadhan aku dapat berpuasa dekat rumah. Yeayyy *joget joget* Tahun lepas puasa dekat UTeM, masa tu semua baru nak masuk U, matrik, dll. Tak kisah la kat mana pun, yang penting cara kita isi Ramadhan kita tu ye dak? Jangan asyik turuuuuu je (perli diri sendiri hahahah)

Harini dah masuk hari ketujuh dah puasa, dah nak habis 10 hari pertama bulan Ramadhan. Dah terlambat ke nak wish selamat berpuasa? πŸ˜‚ Tak kira la, nak wish gak. Selamat berpuasa untuk korang yang singgah blog ini secara suka-suka nak baca blog ni, atau suka tuan blog ni (eh?), ataupun yang tak suka tapi tertekan pulak link blog ni hahaha. Semoga Ramadhan kita semua dilimpahi dengan keberkatan dan semua ibadah kita diterima oleh-Nya. Korang ada apape goals yang nak dicapai tak tahun ni? As for me, aku target nak khatam Quran, tapi bukan dari juzu' 1 lah, dari yang aku baca dari sebelum Ramadhan haritu hehe. Doakan aku terus istiqomah dan berjaya capai goal aku πŸ˜ƒ

Caya ah dah macam blog dakwah dah hahaha #donedakwah.

Macam yang aku cerita dalam post lepas, dah nak dekat dah final sem 2 aku. 5 haribulan rupanya gais aku exam hahaha. Dan hasilnya, blog aku dah berwajah baru!! Macam takde kena mengena kan? Haa memang pun πŸ˜‚ Look what I've done instead of studying πŸ˜” Lepas tu ada hati nak emo, stress pulak hahaha. Apa nak jadi ni Zahidah? Tapi pernah dengar tak satu quote ni...

"Time you enjoy wasting is not wasted" - John Lennon
Hahahaha πŸ˜† Lagipun, anggap je lah aku study Web Programming sambil edit layout blog ni hewhew.

Btw, how does the new look looks? Move on dari theme pastel, aku ganti dengan theme Hologram pulak. Tapi dari segi warna, I don't think ada banyak beza pun dengan theme pastel. Niat asalnya nak stick dengan pastel, just nak tukar header macam header sekarang. Masa cari-cari gambar pastel dekat weheartit, jumpa gambar-gambar homographic, so terrrrinsipired dari situ lah. Daripada nak tukar header je, dah terrrrrrrrtukar almost semua benda.


Agak annoying gambar aku dekat sidebar tu besar gedabak but I love myself so why not? πŸ˜‚ And dat quote on the header from zahithegreat aka myself hahahaha k no.

Sebelum aku tukar rupa blog, aku tukar playlist lagu aku kepada playlist K-indie. I really recommend all song on the playlist, melody-wise and lyric-wise. Comel sangat semua lagu tu. Kalau dengar time study pun mood baik je. Tapi kalau korang dengar nasyid ke zikir ke time study janganlah tukar pulak hehe. Ni cadangan je tau πŸ˜‚

Okay tu je nak cerita kali ni. Eh jap, if aku post review manga ada orang berminat nak baca ke? πŸ‘‰πŸ‘ˆ I've been thinking to review this one manga but tak berkesempatan (ye ke?) but I really do wanna share the manga because it was sooooo good for a manga yang aku just randomly pilih berdasarkan cover and short synopsis hehe. Took me quite some time to move on from it πŸ˜…

Tu je kot, kalau korang baca entry ni sebelum sahur, selamat bersahur! Kalau baca dah nak waktu berbuka, selamat berbuka! Selain dari waktu itu, selamat berpuasa dan selamat beramal!

Assalamualaikum 😊

Also, thank you so muchhhh guys yang bagi kata-kata semangat and motivasi on previous entry!! πŸ’—And... look at dat cute airplane when you hover over the blockquote!!!! Comel!!!!!!!!!

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